Alvin Rah

School has been hectic, with all the projects and assignments to rush. Sometimes i just wonder if the teachers did their plannings. Try putting themselves in our shoes. Yet, perhaps, they went through these before?

I would say i'm coping well with encouragement from different people and also God's strength in my life. Different times i felt as though things are gonna crash, even my physical body. Felt like giving up too. But, i saw this "If you know that He is God, you will never even think of giving up" and He will never let the righteous fall ya? Psalms 55:22

Cell group's AWESOME! The time of sharing and openness in the cell group really encourages me and spurs me on to love God more. Glad to hear that my cell members have AWESOME dreams for God to use them. I want to be like David, a man after God's own heart, and also a speaker of truth to the broken and lost, to see them come back to God. It really takes dynamic faith, my dedication and also a disciplined life on my part to see that come to past. I just want to allow God to use me to be the best that i can be. God is God, so just let Him be God. Faith without action is dead. It takes trusting in God, sacrifices to be made, laying down of self, and that's dynamic faith. It takes passion, time and willingness, and that's dedication. It takes self-control, consistency, integrity, and that's disciplined life. David trusted God to see Goliath defeated, took pride in little things like tending the sheeps to see God make him a king, quick to admit his mistakes to become a man after God's own heart.

God, use my life according to Your will, i just want to be a passerby, on my way home to where heaven is. 

Alright, lately, this song "One Way" has been revealing its true meaning to me. I am not really a fan of this song, maybe because we sang it too often in the past. But i'm starting to make this song my prayer to God. It's exactly how i felt during times of troubles and He is assuring me that He's always there. And He's the only one i need. Here goes....

I lay my life down at Your feet
Cause You're the only one i need
I turn to You and You are always there.

In troubled times it's You i seek
I put You first that's all i need
I humble all i am all to You.

One way, Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
One way, Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for

You are always, always there
Everyhow and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me.

You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end.

You are the Way, the Truth and the Life
We live by faith and not by sight for You
We're living all for You.

God is faithful. He carried me through those tough and draining period. Sometimes, thinking back, it's not that tough after all. It's because of procrastination and improper time management that cause me to lose focus. Thank God.

I am just so amazed at what God has been doing in my life. Especially in my studies. He just gave me peace when it comes to tests that i'm not really sure of how to do, and still manage to complete them. He gave me inspirations and ideas just within a short 15min of waiting for bus and bus ride for my project and i scored an A for it. It was one project that was draining and i couldn't think of any ideas till the last day where i suppose to present my idea to my classmates and tutors. And just awhile ago, i checked my results for another module and guess what, i got another A! Yes. It was also a test which i struggled one hour before the paper starts and was prepared to fail. Totally couldn't understand what my friends were teaching. I prayed and trusted God. He is a God of impossibilities!

So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.

I want to glorify God with my results, and i know i CAN.

School was awesome today. Manage to follow what the tutor was blabbering about. Haha.

It just takes maybe a short 1 minute every morning at the start of the day, cast all your cares and negative feelings to God. He understands how you feel and knew your struggle even before they come pulling you down. Die to self, and it is no longer i who live, but Christ lives in me. 

It was sure exciting, when God just come putting faces of people into your head and prompt you to start praying for their needs. I want to start praying for the needs of others again. That can be one way to die to self and put others before me. I'm sure it's a good way to edify my spirit man too. 

Oh ya, decided to fast from facebook! Haha. Although it doesn't bother me much and i'm not addicted to it, but somehow it can be a distraction. Today is day 2 of fasting. Awesome. I can't fast from macbook although i spend quite alot of time on it. Gotta use it for my assignments. But, somehow i dread using it at times. Just imagine facing a screen for hours. I rather go out for some fresh air and meet someone face to face for a good long chat.

It's Holland's and Brazil's match tonight. Guess i'm gonna stay up to watch and at the same time rush out some work. No classes tmr! 

Who's gonna stay up to watch world cup with me? 

The knockout match between Germany and England ended with a 4-1. I was simply distracted by that 22 players and a ball on the field. Hardwork and effort was put in right from the start of practices till now. And in just 90min, all was gone. What could be done? They just gotta pick themselves up. 

Sometimes, we put in effort and see no results. Do we just give up? No. We don't just give in to circumstances and let them limit what we can do. We pick ourselves up.

Many times, we put a lid over our lives. We allow the situation to control us. We limit ourselves by our age, talents, ability, mindset, failures, struggles and what others say about us. God wants to use us to do great things for Him. He does not want us to put a lid over our lives. 

I was just pondering about some petty struggles in my life. God wants to use me much more than i can imagine. Look beyond self, and look at the needs of others.

I withdrew from MIP at the very last minute when they were calling for last sign-ups and confirms, due to integrated assignments and school. Although nobody knows, but deep inside, i wasn't feeling very good. I just missed a great opportunity to see what God wants to use me in the mission field. I really wanted to go. However, God reminded me that it isn't anything about going out there and being a blessing to the poor and broken. God wants me to start missions at where he placed me first. At home, in school, the community and the streets. If i can't even start where he placed me, there's no need to go out there. I believe God knows and challenge me, that if i am able to handle the little things that He placed in my life, He will give me bigger things to conquer. 

Take my life, Lord.

Alvin...

Come on, fight the good fight of faith! Give Him praise in the good and bad times.

To only
my Maker
my Father
my Saviour
Redeemer
Restorer
Rebuilder
Rewarder
to only a God like You,
do i give my praise.

Lord. 

I'm tired.

Really tired.

Trust.

Hang in there.

Keep awake.

Surrender to God; wait and see.

Just submitted my first assignment. Presentation tmr. Woah. After such a long time. There are more to come. DEADLINES ARE MAKING ME DEAD TIRED. Gotta hang in there. Put on my knee pads! 

Here's the link to my hypertext fictionassignment: alvinchewis.cravingforart.com

I think i could have done better. But just couldn't understand how dreamweaver works. Spent sleepless nights on it. The next assignment shall be better. 

I like this song, 'Come home running'. Was intending to put a song with my story, then i came across this song. 

Alright, gonna prepare for presentation now. I just slept for 16 hours and realised school's over. Tsk.

His arms are open wide.